My husband will tell you I am the least patient person he has ever met. I can’t tell you how many times I have found myself in trouble because I could not wait in many aspects of my life including relationships, finances, and professional life. I have taken short cuts only to be two steps back when it is all over.
“Short cuts make for long delays”
– Pippin, The Fellowship of the Ring
If anyone should know about long delays, it is Pippin and Frodo! I am currently halfway through my master’s program to be certified to teach 6-12 English Language Arts. I have applied for student teaching starting in the fall and I have passed all my certification exams, but I am now in an interesting waiting game. Because of the way my program is set up, I could potentially get hired for the 2015-2016 school year as a teacher rather than doing my student teaching, but there is a catch. Since I am still in my program, schools have to make the claim they could not find a fully certified applicant before they hire me; it could be the week of planning or the first week of school before I could be hired! Talk about throwing a wrench in my obsession with planning every aspect of my life.
According to a quick search on my YouVersion Bible App, the word wait appears in the Old Testament 100 times and the New Testament 31 times (ESV Version). To me the most encouraging of these verses is found in Psalms 27:14 (ESV).
Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!
Sometimes I need to be told twice (insert bad joke about being told twice here), it is not a coincidence it says wait for the Lord twice! To me, it like he is saying, “Did you hear me? I said WAIT!” How many times a day do I tell AK to wait for her own good, for her own safety? God is doing the same thing.
I am not sure if it is God’s plan for me to be hired yet, but we are praying! I just know this is not a time to rush, it is a time to wait. It is not a time to be idle, it is a time to be strong. It is not a time for short cuts, it is a time for perseverance. It took me a long time to accept that God was leading me to education, but I know it is where I am supposed to be now. Not only do I feel it is in His plan to work with students and be a light for Him during the school year, but I also feel it is in His plan for me to be available in the summers to serve Him in missions and I am so anxious to see what that looks like, but I have to wait.